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      • Red Lavenders bloom just the same
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      • The Dance Becomes Your Very Own
      • The Pink Elephant
      • Sunset in Kamakura
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      • An American Sonnet to Dying Flowers
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      • Fifty-two Minutes
      • The Day I Love Myself More Than You
      • Shadows
      • Bloodlust: The Metamorphosis
      • Canvas
      • picture this
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      • Bathroom Floor
      • Cat
      • M
      • 삼년상 (Sam-Nyun-Sang)
      • Valley
      • I'm More Than
      • I'm Not a Toy
      • Rising Phoenix
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      • Editors' Note (2023)
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      • Snippet of Thought
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      • What Music Does
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      • If a poisonous snake bites itself, will it die?
      • Rochester
      • Crown of Branches
      • Stairs to the Sea
      • A Poem Written Entirely From Advertisements
      • Pyromania
      • silhouette of a bird against winter stars
      • thunderstorm in the bedroom
      • A Night in Recovery
      • sleeping gypsie
      • paper dolls&goodbyes
      • We Are Women
      • Village Air
      • Sunshine's Laughter
      • the male gaze
      • The Forensic Entomologist
      • Lacking
      • Drowning
      • Adelie
    • Create the Wonders We Dream (2021) >
      • Editors' Note (2021)
      • Zove
      • I'm Sorry
      • Fake Smile
      • My Friend the Balloon
      • Eyes Intertwined
      • Perfect
      • Only a Moment
      • A Dangerous Word
      • My Dreams
      • The Last 100 Meters
      • The Green Void (Villanelle)
      • The Whimsical Galaxy (Sestina)
      • The Silent Kindness
      • Pressure
      • Table on the Hill
      • The Yukon
      • The Shore
      • Repentance
      • Her and I
      • Infections of the Soul
      • Threads
      • Dream of a High Schooler
      • Empty
      • little flame
      • scars
      • black and white
      • The Cat
      • Joy
      • Sweet Honey Bee Stings
      • If There Were One Day
      • Delete
      • Our Hearts to Central Vietnam
      • him or Him?
      • Ocean
      • Es Llaner Beach
      • Sewn Together
      • Rain
      • Yes, I Like
      • The Legacy of the Moon
      • The Wind Whimpers
      • From Here I See
      • To Feel Clean
      • Red
      • Survival
      • Substance
      • Golden Lies
      • Midnight Tango
      • Ode to a Spleen
      • Modern Siren
      • The Night's Diamond Tears
      • Beats In Double Time
      • A Day in the Flight
      • Carved By Venus
      • Lifeline
      • Everest
      • Education
      • How Much of Reality Can Be Observed
      • What is a Spork
      • What is the difference between love and in love
      • What would you have wanted? me to say
      • Planet Caravan
      • The Journey of a Minute
      • The Circus of Scars
      • Mosaic
      • Color
      • Love and Acceptance
    • Colors I Never Knew Existed (2020) >
      • Editors' Note (2020)
      • Two Weeks' Notice
      • A Curious Man
      • An Eternity Swathed in Cobwebs
      • Hidden Memories: A Villanelle
      • A Better Place
      • Conscription
      • Just Breathe
      • Akko
      • The Hungry Dark
      • And Then Something Shuffled
      • Deodorants are a Girl's Best Friend
      • The Old House
      • Willow
      • Perfection
      • She Will Be Queen
      • Nothing But Space
      • a wicked thing
      • Anthony
      • Cheesecake
      • Za
      • Coco
      • Coexist
      • der böse Mann
      • Feeding
      • Catharsis
      • I HAD TO RENAME THIS POEM DUE TO COPYRIGHT ISSUES
      • For All The Kids Who Were Told They'd Never Make It... and Believed This
      • i Will Always Love You
      • Our 4
      • Rainy Day
      • Space
      • The Ocean Cares Nothing of Man
      • Sickly Sweet Love
      • I call the eating disorder hotline
      • Bright and Sunny Day
      • Grandma in the Moon
      • Interminable Education in Seventeen Syllables
      • Macrocosmic Creation
      • Middle Class Psyche
      • My Sister
      • From a Park Bench
      • Rain
      • A Recollection of Our Memories
      • Sadie Got Me in My Feelings
      • Uranium Rose
      • When I Grow Up - Paige Rhoads
      • Who am I?
      • 49-53
    • Words Become Reality (2019) >
      • Editors' Note (2019)
      • Bear Down: A Sestina
      • Kidnapped & Killed
      • Lemonade
      • Rise
      • Someone Who always Pays
      • A Simple Story
      • The King's Battle
      • Aftermath
      • Aging Population
      • Can we still be friends?
      • Carpe Diem
      • Coffee
      • Day to Day
      • Do Not Hold me Closer, Let me Go
      • Gift of Time
      • Love Everlasting
      • A Message to the Youth
      • Peach
      • Waiting for the Bell
      • Randy
      • The River & The Earth
      • The Show Goes On
      • Summer Love
      • Sundae
      • West Coast Wishing
    • Watch Every Second (2018) >
      • Editors' Note (2018)
      • White
      • eleven eleven
      • Growing Up
      • Claustrophobia
      • The Cage
      • The Soldier's Return
      • Spacing Out
      • Depression
      • Mona Lisa
      • Childhood Cancer
      • Puberty
      • Languish
      • A Magical Ending
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      • Such a Foreign Concept
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      • Ode to My Mirror
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      • Ideal Love
      • Cliff at Dusk
      • I Will Never Forget You
      • Lost
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      • Cannibal Animal
      • A Poem for Grandpa 2
      • Solvent
      • Risky
      • Shannen and Graces’ Long Road
      • Dear Bubbles
      • A Tree in the Air
      • Losing Myself
      • ABC's Poem
      • My Glorious Flight
      • Birth Giver
      • Flat Line
      • Eternal Beauty
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Bear Down: A Sestina - Tyler Van Swol

After my entire life of disciplined hard work and exhaustion,
I watched helplessly as my dignity flew through the air like a feather.
Knowing I had undeniably failed, standing stunned and shaking.
Seeing my entire life fall apart in that single moment
Paralyzed me as I could do nothing but feel the brittleness of my bones,
Slowly and sullenly sulking away for what could be the final time.

Oh, all the success stories I’ve heard of one’s final time!
Persistently pushing through the endless exhaustion!
But alas, not me, as all I have is a churning stomach and bruised bones.
Knowing the whispers of when my dignity flew away like a feather,
Every new comment like a
blade in my back. Every. . .Waking. . .Moment.
It matters not, my hope to forget, the memory always ending in shaking.

I know not how to push past these momentous moments of shaking!
How can I show my face when I froze in the most trying time?
Why is it I who must be ridiculed because of that single moment?
Eternally I suffer, helplessly hoping it will cease, that exhaustion!
Letting my life crash down upon me because of that frustrating feather!
This gut-wrenching feeling consuming me and my aching bones.

If only there were a way to lessen it, that aching in my bones.
Some minuscule possibility there could be a cease in the shaking.
A world in which my burden reduced to the weight of a feather
An instant which could be remembered without that terrible time,
When my unfortunate fate was sealed, despite my effort and exhaustion.
This question is one I perpetually ponder every waking moment.
And in my pondering, a thought entered my head, at first for just a moment.

​“Today is a new day!” it incessantly stated despite my battered bones.
“Start a new chapter!” it continued, attempting to bait me from my exhaustion.
“What if it’s right?” I said to myself as I started excitedly shaking.
I stood up from my seat and said aloud, “Maybe it’s about time!”
And for the first time in forever, it was gone, that festering feather.

Silently I stood, my sorrow reduced to that flying feather.
At last I could see what had eluded me; my failure was only one moment.
The sun will always shine over me, reminding me that testing time
Was nothing more than that, a test of my will and the strength of my bones.
My reflection drawing to a close, I felt an end to my shaking
Knowing my inner battle had been won, it was time to revisit my exhaustion.


My now sturdy bones have another chance to propel that feather
But the difference in this moment, you see, is there will be no shaking
And no hindrance by exhaustion, because the field goal will be good this time.
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Tyler Van Swol, a senior from Regina High School, comments that, "I am writing this poem from what I believe the thought process of Chicago Bears kicker Cody Parkey would be after missing the game-winning field goal against the Philadelphia Eagles in the 2019 NFL Playoffs. As a die-hard Bears fan, I was in disbelief watching this unfold and felt extreme sympathy toward Cody Parkey, but I have hope for the future of the franchise."

The editors were impressed by the poem's adherence to sestina format, its use of the challenge words, and the author's approach to speaking from the perspective of another.


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