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      • Behind the Falling Window
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      • A Walk On the Tears (Of Mother Earth)
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      • what's she waiting for
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      • Ink Forms
      • Sylas Yarad
      • Origamy
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      • I Wish You Loved Me Like The Mountains
      • Bathroom Hash
      • Desperation
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      • when colored bulbs turn to white lights
      • Red Lavenders bloom just the same
      • Rust Belt Blues
      • The Badass
      • The Reader's Reverie
      • Echos
      • The Dance Becomes Your Very Own
      • The Pink Elephant
      • Sunset in Kamakura
      • Sleepy Hollow
      • An American Sonnet to Dying Flowers
    • Our Metamorphic Stories (2024) >
      • Editors' Note (2024)
      • Fifty-two Minutes
      • The Day I Love Myself More Than You
      • Shadows
      • Bloodlust: The Metamorphosis
      • Canvas
      • picture this
      • rite of passage
      • Bathroom Floor
      • Cat
      • M
      • 삼년상 (Sam-Nyun-Sang)
      • Valley
      • I'm More Than
      • I'm Not a Toy
      • Rising Phoenix
      • Grow
      • red :3
      • Green Cousins
      • The Lighthouse
      • Sea of Plants/Planets
      • Kitty's Poem
      • Fin
      • tomie
      • Library Class
      • Our Lie
      • Weavers
      • An Old Tree
      • A World Without You
      • All Must Die
      • Flower
      • The Canoe
      • It's Scary Up Here
      • Beautiful Things
      • Ma Vie
      • The Final Wall
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      • Waqe Zhiga
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      • imposter syndrome
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      • Pretty Girls
      • It's Just Us
    • See You in Another World (2023) >
      • Editors' Note (2023)
      • Voices of the Summer Night
      • Lightning Glut
      • All The Little Things
      • From a Distance
      • Confined
      • The Night Hours
      • A Contrapuntal for the Girl in My Dreams
      • Go Back (before they do)
      • Snippet of Thought
      • The Darkness
      • Her Nature
      • I Listen
      • Stranger In The City
      • What Music Does
      • Fallen Stranger
      • The Black Dress
    • A Fire of Words (2022) >
      • Editors' Note (2022)
      • The Floor Wallows Lower
      • Cornflowers
      • Erudite
      • That One Morning
      • mom, im afraid
      • selenophilia
      • Roses and Rainbows
      • If a poisonous snake bites itself, will it die?
      • Rochester
      • Crown of Branches
      • Stairs to the Sea
      • A Poem Written Entirely From Advertisements
      • Pyromania
      • silhouette of a bird against winter stars
      • thunderstorm in the bedroom
      • A Night in Recovery
      • sleeping gypsie
      • paper dolls&goodbyes
      • We Are Women
      • Village Air
      • Sunshine's Laughter
      • the male gaze
      • The Forensic Entomologist
      • Lacking
      • Drowning
      • Adelie
    • Create the Wonders We Dream (2021) >
      • Editors' Note (2021)
      • Zove
      • I'm Sorry
      • Fake Smile
      • My Friend the Balloon
      • Eyes Intertwined
      • Perfect
      • Only a Moment
      • A Dangerous Word
      • My Dreams
      • The Last 100 Meters
      • The Green Void (Villanelle)
      • The Whimsical Galaxy (Sestina)
      • The Silent Kindness
      • Pressure
      • Table on the Hill
      • The Yukon
      • The Shore
      • Repentance
      • Her and I
      • Infections of the Soul
      • Threads
      • Dream of a High Schooler
      • Empty
      • little flame
      • scars
      • black and white
      • The Cat
      • Joy
      • Sweet Honey Bee Stings
      • If There Were One Day
      • Delete
      • Our Hearts to Central Vietnam
      • him or Him?
      • Ocean
      • Es Llaner Beach
      • Sewn Together
      • Rain
      • Yes, I Like
      • The Legacy of the Moon
      • The Wind Whimpers
      • From Here I See
      • To Feel Clean
      • Red
      • Survival
      • Substance
      • Golden Lies
      • Midnight Tango
      • Ode to a Spleen
      • Modern Siren
      • The Night's Diamond Tears
      • Beats In Double Time
      • A Day in the Flight
      • Carved By Venus
      • Lifeline
      • Everest
      • Education
      • How Much of Reality Can Be Observed
      • What is a Spork
      • What is the difference between love and in love
      • What would you have wanted? me to say
      • Planet Caravan
      • The Journey of a Minute
      • The Circus of Scars
      • Mosaic
      • Color
      • Love and Acceptance
    • Colors I Never Knew Existed (2020) >
      • Editors' Note (2020)
      • Two Weeks' Notice
      • A Curious Man
      • An Eternity Swathed in Cobwebs
      • Hidden Memories: A Villanelle
      • A Better Place
      • Conscription
      • Just Breathe
      • Akko
      • The Hungry Dark
      • And Then Something Shuffled
      • Deodorants are a Girl's Best Friend
      • The Old House
      • Willow
      • Perfection
      • She Will Be Queen
      • Nothing But Space
      • a wicked thing
      • Anthony
      • Cheesecake
      • Za
      • Coco
      • Coexist
      • der böse Mann
      • Feeding
      • Catharsis
      • I HAD TO RENAME THIS POEM DUE TO COPYRIGHT ISSUES
      • For All The Kids Who Were Told They'd Never Make It... and Believed This
      • i Will Always Love You
      • Our 4
      • Rainy Day
      • Space
      • The Ocean Cares Nothing of Man
      • Sickly Sweet Love
      • I call the eating disorder hotline
      • Bright and Sunny Day
      • Grandma in the Moon
      • Interminable Education in Seventeen Syllables
      • Macrocosmic Creation
      • Middle Class Psyche
      • My Sister
      • From a Park Bench
      • Rain
      • A Recollection of Our Memories
      • Sadie Got Me in My Feelings
      • Uranium Rose
      • When I Grow Up - Paige Rhoads
      • Who am I?
      • 49-53
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      • Editors' Note (2019)
      • Bear Down: A Sestina
      • Kidnapped & Killed
      • Lemonade
      • Rise
      • Someone Who always Pays
      • A Simple Story
      • The King's Battle
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      • Aging Population
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      • Carpe Diem
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      • Day to Day
      • Do Not Hold me Closer, Let me Go
      • Gift of Time
      • Love Everlasting
      • A Message to the Youth
      • Peach
      • Waiting for the Bell
      • Randy
      • The River & The Earth
      • The Show Goes On
      • Summer Love
      • Sundae
      • West Coast Wishing
    • Watch Every Second (2018) >
      • Editors' Note (2018)
      • White
      • eleven eleven
      • Growing Up
      • Claustrophobia
      • The Cage
      • The Soldier's Return
      • Spacing Out
      • Depression
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      • Childhood Cancer
      • Puberty
      • Languish
      • A Magical Ending
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      • The Short Film
      • Starting Line
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      • Ode to My Mirror
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      • Ideal Love
      • Cliff at Dusk
      • I Will Never Forget You
      • Lost
      • OCD
      • Cannibal Animal
      • A Poem for Grandpa 2
      • Solvent
      • Risky
      • Shannen and Graces’ Long Road
      • Dear Bubbles
      • A Tree in the Air
      • Losing Myself
      • ABC's Poem
      • My Glorious Flight
      • Birth Giver
      • Flat Line
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I'm Sorry
​By: Daisy Tapia

Picture
You’re the one who walked away,
Now I don’t know what to do,
I’m the one who decided to stay,
And I just can’t be mad at you.
 
I trusted you so easily,
I loved you with all my heart,
But you're the one who broke me,
Now I’m falling apart.
 
I’m sorry I wasn’t enough,
I’m sorry I made you leave,
I’m sorry I made life tough,
I’m sorry I made you hate me.
Please come back to me,
Without you I'm dying.
 
I know I should hate you,
I know I should forget,
I really want to,
I can’t just yet.
 
Tears run down my face,
Thinking about our memories,
Now I’m standing in place
Looking back at what you did to me.
 
I want to hate you,
I want to scream,
I want someone new,
I want my dream
But I’m still stuck on you,
Someone help me
Let me hate you,
Let me please.
 
I’m not sorry I’m getting better,
I’m not sorry that I’m moving on,

I’m not sorry I’m stronger,
I’m not sorry the old me is gone.
 
I’m not holding on to hope,
I’m not begging on the floor,
I’m not going to mope,
I’m not sorry anymore. 
​
Writer's Statement: I have already dealt with depression and having bad days which is where writing came into my life. To me writing is an outlet and an escape from my chaotic mind. 
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