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What Would You Have Wanted Me To Say?
By: Emma Panther

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Words, like those for apologies, are hard to say.
People want them a certain way.
Yet, you want me to say I’m sorry, all day.
But for once I want you to say it.
You may not think that you can be to blame.
But now, I need you to know that it isn’t just me. 







​

Now I’ll have you know, I’ve sat alone each day.
In the house, we bought for you and me.
But now I just sit alone in it.
The words, ‘I’m sorry, let’s work this out.’ are the hardest to say.
The house was once decorated in a certain way.
And now, I am thinking about who needs to be the prime one to blame.





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Do you want me to say it?
Say the words that have brought all the blame to you.
These words won’t take me too long to say.
This will take only a few minutes out of your “busy” day.
I used to swoon when you would say these words to me.
But now I end up walking the opposite way. 










You tried to get away from what you deserved, the blame. 
​
I thought the words, I’m sorry, I would have to say it, yet now it is yours to this day.
 
What Would You Have Wanted Me to Say? 









​I know for a fact that the blame shouldn’t fall on me.
In fact, I don’t know the words to say.
You are the one that should have the blame.
Yet all you do is want it one way.
I just want you to say ‘I’m sorry’, that’s it!
Yet I just have to sit here, knowing that you won’t, each and every day. 









​I don’t want to say I am to blame,

Yet I think about this each day.
Our relationship, our life together, didn’t have to end this way.
You shouldn’t have gone back on the promise you made me.
At the time you knew the words to say.
Now you’ve gone back on it. 






​​I want us to not be this way.

Yet this is all we can be, this is it.
And after thinking about this, the blame shouldn’t be on me.
You are the one to blame.
Now thinking about us each day,
I simply ask you, what would you have wanted me to say?
Writer's Statement: I am trying to create an argument over who is to blame after a break-up. The format is both parties, arguing and you are reading both.
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